Her and him

She's smiling, uncertain,
offers him her heart on a platter
Still beating, still bloody,
but she just doesn't matter

She gives him a tentative beam
But he's watching his favourite football team

©cih18, 28.01.18

Loving you

What a waste of my time and emotion
When you'd no intention
of loving me
and I'd no notion
of not.
©cih18, 22:08, 26.01.18

Goodnight, sweetheart*

All your texts, your calls, your messages
Those long cold nights I slept alone

When you decided you were better off single
Were you sleeping on your own?
©cih18, 16:43, 26.01.18

*(1950s song)

Dumped

You’d been thinking
(you said)
and you’d made a decision,
and while you thought I was nice..
Your voice trailed off
blankly listing bland adjectives -
(some even accurate)
I felt my skin goosebump,
turning to ice
You just didn’t feel that way about me
It was only right that I should know.
So you ended it
with what you thought was kindness
and I stood there
simply watching you go
©cih18, 13:34, 26.01.18

Perception deception

I try so hard to seem understanding
Be the person you think me to be
But inside I'm having a tantrum
and screaming
Why me?
Why me?
©cih18, 15.01.18

All cats are grey in the dark*

Anxiety, the grey dog
Slinking on sullen, silken paws
Scratching at my mind
With his vicious, malicious claws
©cih18, 13.01.18

*(16th century proverb)

Plus c'est change...

New Year
Same old me
Trying to find some willpower
To control my destiny
New Year
New membership at the gym
Struggling with motivation
To be fitter, be healthier
To be slim
©cih18, 17:51, 07.01.18

Misconcepts

My brain is a notebook of misremembered thoughts
Half written
Half forgotten
Partial ideas
Partially ignored
©cih18, 22:33, 06.01.18